Shes afraid of heights...

Today is the day before Kora and mommy get on a plane to OR to see Stacy. I really can't sleep a wink I've tried. You know you start to feel like a child again when your just sitting there trying to fall asleep but you can't your so excited... Kind of like Disney World surprise vacations. I have promised myself no matter what when Kora is five of six years old were going to take her ... Things have gotten better for Kora since we found out she has Asthma because now a treatment helps her sleep all night. Today we were watching Teen Mom the first episodes which I know is the in thing but since we don't pay attention to whats in and whats not. WE FINALLY WATCHED IT !!! :)

I realized something and learned allot... first its not my place to judge these mothers they all have different situations and different life's and second I think we can all learn from their accomplishments and there troubled times...

The episode that most caught my eye was the one with Carley crinkled her nose and so did her birth mommy.... <3

Note to self ... Do you ever realize when your princess crinkles her nose

I feel so blessed to have this sleeping beauty a husband and a child both gifts from God gifts of life....


For hours I've tried to fall asleep or maybe I haven't maybe I'm nervous maybe I'm scared or maybe I'm just to excited ??? I'm not really sure...


I can honestly say Kora has no issues sleeping through the night but she has no idea what going to see STACE!!!! means yet but she will soon. I hope Kora likes the plane ride because mommy is

AFRAID OF HEIGHTS

Asthma

Today I got up and called the doctor, I had a Mommy's concern for her child. I don't think a father nor a grandparent can truly understand the worry of a mother for her child because when you notice changes if your child nobody else does the world just thinks your crazy...

Our princess has had an awful cough since Valentines Day sick 26 days today...

I knew it couldn't be normal this constant cough no matter how much someone else told me she was fine I knew she wasn't fine.

Note to self your motherly instincts are usually right.

Never wait for your child to get worse even if your advised to do so...

I am happy we finally know whats going on but sad because making a child get a breathing treatment isn't easy even if it betters her health. Today I learned of devistation and wanted to take the time out of my day/night to say a prayer for Japan who was hit with a 8.9 Earthquake...

During your time of suffering the lord will guide and protect, prayer is powerful so smile if you have clothes of your backs and breathe still in your lungs. There is a promise land for those whom pass and a life to live on earths ground for those that have stayed. I think the Army,Marines and all other branches of volunteers deserve a thank you because its most likely true they will be the ones assisting Japan and the US in this time of need.

The word devastation can mean a new beginning

Although today has been so sad for us I'm happy were not suffering as much as we could be. I know God will protect us because were all his children. If I haven't told you today God thank you for giving me this life, my family, my daughter and so much more.

I watched the videos of cars,boats and airplanes being covered by a large rave which got me thinking. Lord isn't it true that when we go we won't know only you will know ? I know allot of things said in church are things people have carried on not you. I think the world is confused everyone thinks 2012 is the end of time. Well if it is I hope you change your mind because I'd like to see my daughter grow up into a woman have babies of her own and maybe a few more of our own in the future. ha ha don't get any ideas ;D we need a few more years ;D

Note to self God answers prayer

I can't sleep...

It's now 5:04am and I've been up all night staring at a sleeping beauty <3
I've spent most my time tonight thinking of how thankful I am shes alive and she is here.
I know allot of parents don't think that is really needed unless you've understood a loss but we understand. I like to take in the moments with her, sleeping like an angel in my arms or on my pillow.
Tonight she fell asleep in her daddy arms laying her head on his chest where she always feels safe, after a while she woke up from her slumber for a fun filled sugar rush out of no where.
Tonight I have spent all night thinking about my pregnancy with her and her birth, although times were hard we made it and she is our everything.
I know this blog is about my our baby girl but I think I need to share what my husband said to me today.
I said you know we have been together almost 7 years this August and He replied yea I was telling my friend that a moment ago
and
I said you know what else is crazy I still find you just as attractive as the day I meet you.
 He replied I find you more attractive so
naturally I ask why, wondering what silly thing he's going to say to ruin the moment because he does that ( hes a joker )
but instead
 he replied with I don't know ever since you carried my child and gave birth to my child there is something more... ":D

Note to self forget your insecurities he loves you for you.

Tonight we were talking to Stacy about our trip to Oregon and I decided to show her what Kora calls her by a video <3

STACE!!!!

Tick Toc ...

13 more days before my darling princess meets her God Mommy and my childhood best friend. The number 13 reminds me of so much I was 13 when I saw her last, I found out we had the same birthday when I was 13. The plane tickets are bought and pretty soon we will be on our first flight to OR :)

EXCITED isn't the correct word!!!

Today has been a wonderful day I'm an on call Photographer today because a precious baby girl was born today and I'll be taking her first professional pictures <3

I love my job and my inspiration for my job is up beside me eating Cheerios's and giggling at Shreks funny outfit on the television screen.

Back to God Mommy/Best Friend her name is Stacy my whole life she has been there for me but since this blog isn't about me I will say this shes always been there for my daughter as well. <3

My daughter's baby book contains a small sweet message from her <3
that I hope to have always to show her when shes older Stacy really loves my daughter so much and I know when she meets her for the first time she will love her even more.


Our Plans :


Pictures, Pictures and more Pictures ... ;)

Zoo 

Coast

Aquarium

I know were going to have so much fun!!!!

Today I found out about a friends condition she has cancer and needs prayers ;) prayers are a way of showing God we still love him and hopen with everything he can change things we can't. Cancer the name brings back memories in high school instead of wondering if I got an A I wondered if my mother would be around when I got home. Cancer something I'm choosing to protect my princess from at all cost. The silent killer, the early thriller the word nobody ever wants to hear, but sometimes we do...

This girl has been through enough and having this happen opens my eyes even more to the beauty of life..

 Note to self : Life is a blessing

Everyday I wake up I'd like to hold my princess tight kiss her sweet face and then say a prayer for my friend that she can do the same for years to come. Something as precious as life, how can anyone not grasp the amazement God has given us when we say I woke up this morning, I moved my legs, I breathed. Doesn't anyone understand this... love as long as you can as much as you can because our days are numbered we can die in our slumbers

Sweet slumbers the slumbers I watch at night when her chest moves up and down and I know shes still breathing, the constant worry I'll be the mommy without her. Please God if your listening I'd like to be around a long time and have my family there too... The emergency in my heart beat when she stopped the very first time I go back to that night, and I shake. I know you saved her.

Sooo Thank You

I'm reminded so many times a day a week a month... just how important life is and how blessed I am just in case I ever seem to forget.

Life gives you plenty of reason to forget though, flat tires,broken hearts,sickness... and its hard at times to remember we can get through this and we will get through this. So tonight I'm thankful for being restless with a two year old that refuses to sleep. I'm thankful for my headache and all the work I have to do... I'm thankful for hearing  kids movies on the television all night... most of all I'm thankful for Life.