When all your fears come to life, what else do you fear ? The answer is nothing, you have then over come everything your mind has brought before you as scary and everything else seems as if its normal to you. Pain is normal and now you believe you can conquer the world because if you can get through those fears... What is stopping you ? The answer is nothing....

On Decemeber 28th 2011 I gave birth to a baby girl named Aspen, for about 2 months we thought Aspen was perfectly healthy until a series of health issues came to life and we as parents struggled to cope with what was happening.

Note to Self : History repeats its self

On March 27th 2013 I gave birth to a baby boy name Tristen, for the entire pregnancy we thought he was perfectly healthy. Until he begin to vomit green and then found he needed surgery to survive.

I FEAR NOTHING

I have fought the biggest of battles and I still fight. The battle isn't over until an answer is meet. I will not walk away and leave things be with no answer and I will not give up the fight because that is not going to help my daughter. I will give up whatever I have to give up that is mine for my children and my family. I am devoted and I am strong and I fear nothing. So many times I brought my daughter back to life in my arms her life-less body my breath brought her back. What is scarier then that ? What is harder then that ? How can you have more fear in your body then that moment... The answer is you can't. That is the moment you will try to erase out your mind for years but its still there but with all this comes a blessing

I learned how to fight not only for myself but for my children. I learned how to show other parents that its okay to be afraid but don't stay afraid. I learned how to completely give my all to being a mother at the young age of 23 I learned more then most do in a life time.


~ To Be Continued